My husband and children started complaining saying I was spending too much time with the phone but when someone is having an affair they don’t notice how obvious their slipping is.
My husband felt I was becoming distant. That led to me being defensive and doing good for him to cover up. We started having frequent fights, people know when their spouse is slipping away. Each fight with my husband led me to the strange man. I would run to the strange man for comfort slowly I started to love playing the victim, I played the damsel in distress and the strange man was my hero.
He would take me out for lunch just to make me smile. This charming strange man said all the right words, I’d get excited to receive a message from him, it felt like I was dating another man though married to my husband.
“It’s not like I am sleeping with him. We’re just friends”, I told myself as things got closer between me and the strange man. He got to know my personal details including the underwear I wear.
I refused to call what I was doing as having an affair even when we started sending each other love songs, I blamed my husband for creating a vacuum but I knew I was just being selfish.
Until last Friday when I found myself pulling down my underwear, my fingers reached to the spot my husband licks and I started to touch and rub myself. I masturbated to the photo of the strange man I desired a man not my husband.
When I heard my husband parking his car outside, I quickly came to my senses. “What am I doing?” I asked myself
I felt so angry and disappointed with myself I deleted all the photos of that strange man. “It was wrong for me to let you in so close to my life. I am a married woman”,
I texted the strange man. Then I deleted his messages, blocked him I wanted none of this.
I broke down in forgiveness before God I prayed for my marriage I rededicated my commitment to my marriage, my marriage will not suffer because a strange man distracts me.
My husband walked in the bedroom, I jumped at him and hugged him so tightly. I was scared of the woman I was becoming, that woman had to go, I have a home to look after. Since then, I have doubled my efforts in my marriage, my husband and I are in a good place. It’s amazing how much progress a couple can make when they stay focused on each other.
Yes ladies, we love attention and to talk but that doesn’t mean we open the door to anyone for a chat when your spouse is busy and unavailable, understand, work your schedules around each other, not looking for the next option. We don’t stay faithful out of convenience, we stay faithful because we are committed to the on
e we love.
**Don’t Just Know**